Shama Mehta

As I sit here pondering as to what step do I take next, my mind keeps going back to things that were. The wise say there is no point in thinking about the past. Its already done and over with. But I can’t help but think about the way things were. Just even a week ago. I don’t know how helpful this is going to turn out to be. But I know one thing for sure that once I am done with going through all these things in my head, I will have a long list of do’s and dont’s.

It’s been an incredible story so far. So many ups and downs but lately its been more downs. Anyway, one thing that I’ve come across, time and again, is that you are on your own in this life. I mean, yes you’ve got your family and your ‘true’ friends and all that, but at the end of it all, its all YOU that has to do and face everything that YOUR life throws at YOU.

I’ve learned that nothing can fool one more than words. Words words words…can make and break a relationship of any kind. And boy! God save you if you decide anything major just on the basis of words that you find to be honest and true at a certain. The feeling of betrayal (real or imaginary) is quite bitter and plays a big spoilsport in the cocktail of relationships.

I’ve learned that there is no point in expecting anything from anyone. The other person, no matter how close to you, will end up not living upto your expectations eventually. So why bother expecting in the first place?

At this point in time, I look around and wonder…is there anything I should be sad about? The answer is yes. So then why am I not sad? It’s like I’ve become insensitive. Maybe that’s what it is. Or maybe I’ve just learned to live with it. Maybe…just…maybe…

Sticks and stones are hard on bones
Aimed with angry art,
Words can sting like anything
But silence breaks the heart.
~Suzanne Nichols