Affinity is a word that has a definite meaning in the world of natural sciences. But take it a step further and apply it to your own self. For the longest time, I’ve been looking for explanations about how certain people or things make me feel. When I say things, I do not mean only materialistic, tangible objects. I am also referring to the intangible entities such as music, languages and so on.
For example, I have noticed that I feel strong positive emotions towards Sanskrit. I feel strong affinity towards the language irrespective of the fact that I do not know how to speak it, let alone understand. I feel a strong connection to the shehnai, irrespective of the fact that I do not know how to play it. I know exactly how the Vedic chants make me feel. I know exactly how I feel when I look at a certain picture. And the hardest part of knowing all this is the inability to express the feelings in words. No matter how hard I try, I will not be able to do justice about how ethereal I feel when I listen to Latika’s Theme by A R Rahman or how absolutely divine it feels to listen to Ustad Bismillah Khan’s playing Raag Malkauns on the shehnai.
I am off for some more music. Cheerios for now!
Have a heart that never hardens, a temper that never tires, a touch that never hurts. ~Charles Dickens